Wow...i seriously have the worst family in the world man..
I know that I'm not one of your favorite but showing that right in my face hurts me very much...sometimes i do forgive and forget but you just make me want to disappear from the face of this earth...If you want to know how i realised I'm not your favorite? I can give you tons of reasons...
When the others do something wrong or anything they want, the most you would do is keep quiet but if it was me, you would scold me as if i have make the biggest mistake in my life and you keep giving me excuses when i make my decision...
I don't need anything from you...please just respect my decision and don't be too obvious in showing favors...I'm not trying to hurt you in any way even though you are hurting me...I just think that i can't hold it in anymore if you keep doing all that hurtful things to me...maybe you think that i just don't express myself so i don't care but its my respect for you that makes me show only my happy face to you...I'm fine with being the outcast in this family but just don't keep hurting me as if I'm a human without any feelings...
I have always ask myself should i continue being the nice one or should i just be myself ??

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Wass up everyone??
haha...life do get complicated right?
Even i myself don't know who is right and who is wrong...
U know i think that life is a roller coaster ride which i hate to have a ride in..
Having your ups and down, felling scared, helpless and only holding on to your safety belt tightly hoping it will end soon....
People do say hurtful words when you are angry and i understand that..
U do feel hurt by that hurtful words and i understand that...
But the question is what you should have done to prevent all that from happening..
Me being stuck in the middle trying to solve everything sucks man..
I'm trying to make everything work out for everyone but u guys just saw your pain and not mine..
Because of some small misunderstanding you said you rather live with someone else rather than the person that sacrifice every happiness they have to keep you smiling. How naive can you be?
If you think you are right than prove it not run away from it..that is the actions of what a coward would do..and i thought you are a gangster..
If you think you are living a sad life than you are wrong...If you were to compare your life and mine, mine will be the saddest life any human can ever imagine..
Having to keep a straight and happy face when i get angry or sad, having to pretend that i am living in a happy family, having to help people when i just feel like shouting at them....try living that kind of life and i can bet with you that you would have give up long ago...now you live you life being yourself while i live my life being someone else so as not to trouble others...
comparing you life and mine, you are considered lucky...
hmm...whatever lah..i give up playing the nice one here...
just do whatever you guys want...i will still be the nice person but of course not to u guys...

^Love N Respect^

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